“Appa? Appa?” I heard Sufiana saying. I rushed to her room and looked at her through the keyhole.
It was a few days back. I went in my yard to take pictures of flowers, when I heard Sufiana’s voice. Her bedroom window is attached to the yard, and you hear better noises from there. I ran toward the kitchen, and told Mamma, about Sufi saying ‘Appa’ softly, and we both started cracking up at her cuteness. When i went to her room, i poked my head inside the keyhole and looked at her. She was sitting all by herself on the bed. She was sleeping earlier, but woke up. She wasn’t scared without us. She was looking at the window and waving her hands saying “Appa”.
She was spending time with herself.
I didn’t want to disturb her. When she was all by herself. And she didn’t cry, even though she knew we weren’t there with her in the room. She just kept waving at the window. Every minitute I peeked through the keyhole and told mamma what was happening, we both started laughing at how she was saying Appa.(Appa means Father in Kannada, my father’s mother toungh).
Sufiana loves Papa. She can’t stay without him. Every time he goes to office, she points to the door saying, “Appa? Appa?” And waving her hands like ‘I don’t know’.
Our world is filled with so entertainment that we don’t want to spend time with ourselves. If we are getting bored, most of us want to watch T.V, or we want to read a book. I’m not saying read a book is bad, or watching T.V is bad, but we already have so much entertainment, sometimes we should just spend time alone. Ourselves.
Sometimes, when I get up a little late, and my parents have already done their breakfast, I say, “Mamma, i’m getting bored”. But, she says, sometimes their maybe times when you have nobody to company with, that’s when you should just sit by yourself, alone, and just look at the trees brushing with the wind, or the birds chirping, or you just have to sit by your garden/yard, and just get lost in your own world. My Mamma says, when she is having breakfast early, and there is no one with her, she just sits by herself and watches the birds fly tree to tree, or sit in the yard. And actually, she prefers siting by herself. She loves it.
This happens a lots of times, Sufi justs sits alone, without crying in her bedroom. And we let her. We don’t go inside too much thinking she’ll get scared. And if she does, she calls us by crying. And when I or Mamma and Papa come(mostly I) she smiles a wide smile and jumps into our arms.
Infact, today she woke up crying. I was about to stop and see her through the keyhole, and see if she sleeps back by herself, but this time she didn’t. So I just went in, and when i came, i could see she was happy. She immideitley slept when I came, like a invation to sing her a lulabie/song, like she always does. Her favrote one is Lala Lala Lori. And I sang. I couldn’t stop looking at her face. The soft face sleeping, with brown eyes. I kissed her on her cheek, and when she slept, I went outside the door.
Do you spend time with yourself?